In a second the Soldier kicks it away out of reach, sends it skittering to the other side of the path and moves to plant a knee squarely in Bucky's back to pin him to the ground.

Then he knows, he knows what this past-self is thinking and it startles a sound out of him that he can't immediately identify. Then it hits him, laughter. It's short and rough, harsh and it doesn't sound right, it doesn't sound like when other people laugh. He remembers the video in the Smithsonian, the man who laughed so easily and freely next to Steve Rogers.

It's the first time he's laughed that he can remember.

"You think you know what pain is, nothing they did to you then is going to compare what they do to you after."