Teal Deer About Your CR Meme

[quiethumerus]

♥ post with your characters
♥ respond to other people's characters with your characters
♥ they tell you in detail what their character thinks of your character, ic or ooc! tl;dr is enouraged.
♥ then you react if you want!
♥ other people do the same thing to you! maybe you can harvest your tl;dr to use in a CR chart later!

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[quiethumerus]

o/

[furgood]

I started and restarted this a few times, because it's difficult to sum up how she feels now without the things that came before. When she first arrived, he was someone she has cared deeply about, never quite got over, but frankly never expected to see again. She tiptoed around the fact that she hadn't gotten over him for a long time but it was hard to resist coming back to him. She knew she shouldn't get attached to him again, Capitolite to her rebel and all, but it was honestly too much of a fairytale to not. District girl comes to the Capitol and that boy from her childhood is all grown up and treats her like a princess. Too easy to fall for! Or at least to grow attached to.

I, honestly, didn't expect them to get to actual relationship before the war broke out! It was as much of a surprise to me as Meulin when things actually worked out that way. She sees him as the boy he was and the man he is now, creative and intelligent and articulate and inexplicably interested in her. (It's not a self esteem thing even, just a 'he could have his pick' sort of thing. She thinks he's amazing, everyone else must too!) She saw him as perhaps a kinder person than he is and there was a lot of 'I can change him'. She held quite a bit of her true self back in the relationship. She couldn't trust him with her feelings about the Capitol, though she trusted him with pretty much everything else.

And well, then, the brainwashing happened. I'd like to say she lost a lot of trust in him, but that's not entirely true. Perhaps if she had had the ability to examine things logically after the brainwashing and seen what he'd done in a real light, she would have.And in the moment, she felt awfully betrayed. Yet, she was unable to say no or even fight tooth and claw against him. She sort of sees their relationship as fate. He's someone she met again when the world tore them apart and who has known her for years and years. There won't be someone else who cares as deeply for her, who knows her so well. She placed so much trust in him. Too much, really, but she's always been bad at trusting those she shouldn't. She thought he had her best interests at heart. She trusted him to never hurt her, to never try to change her because he loved her best the way she was.

But now, post all of that, she trusts him to change her only for the better. The betrayal is sort of smoothed over. He did it for her! He loved her! He wanted her to be safe! Why would doing whatever he needed for her to be safe be wrong? He's the person she can trust with everything about her. Anything else seems silly to think about.