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Re: Commander Jane Shepard

[carnagecarnival]

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[earthborn]

"You ever meet somebody and you know right away that they're going to have you picking glass out of your scalp by tomorrow? Yeah, he's kinda like that."

Kurloz and Shepard's relationship is complicated, by any measure of it. She fell in with him, initially, mostly out of a finely tuned sense of "Well, fuck it" and then, as is the typical for her, ended up caring an enormous amount about him. He's a passionate guy, and she desperately wants to see him happy-- he's definitely one of hers. Oh, he can bitch, and assume his capital-I Independence and try to tell her that he do what he want, but he's still hers. Even when he wasn't, he was hers. Being one of Shepard's people doesn't end when you step off the ship, or reject her outright, or even when you die. By some measures, it doesn't even end when she dies; maybe that's the crux of their complexity.

She broke up with him, mostly to protect him, but it was too late. Like binary stars, gravity had seized their combined mass and flung it into that complicated, circular dance; it was already far too late to escape a mutual orbit.

And now, one by one by one, all her other supports have been killed and taken and cut away. She worries and wonders where that line used to be, between doing her job because it needed to be done, and liking it. It is a fine line, after all, between a soldier and a killer, and too often these days she crosses it without realizing. He makes it blurrier, but also-- he's alive. He's still here, even if "here" is hundreds of miles away, secreted in a military bunker, working and fighting for people who are ostensibly her enemies. Even if she might be asked to look at him down the end of a scope, and fire. Even if he might end up doing the same for her.

Maybe that's the real meaning for her, of this kismesis thing. At least with Kurloz, there's gravity to hold you down. At least there's something to struggle against, some purpose, someone to fight. At least, there's still you, to fight.

Even if you, like everyone else, are gone.