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quiethumerus ([personal profile] quiethumerus) wrote in [community profile] thecircus2015-12-06 09:08 pm
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Teal Deer About Your CR Meme



♥ post with your characters
♥ respond to other people's characters with your characters
♥ they tell you in detail what their character thinks of your character, ic or ooc! tl;dr is enouraged.
♥ then you react if you want!
♥ other people do the same thing to you! maybe you can harvest your tl;dr to use in a CR chart later!
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[personal profile] sociopathicwolf 2015-12-10 04:17 am (UTC)(link)
Derek has started to realize that Kurloz is his friend and he has no idea what to do with that. It's actually easier for him to categorize Kurloz as 'pack' because then that's feeding into what the Capitol sees him as, and it's become easier for Derek to do things to help keep up that pretense than it is for him to do anything for himself. Which is only partially because he doesn't realize how much he's internalized this 'wolf' thing, and that Kurloz honestly is one of the closest things he has to family aside from Chuck.

He feels more comfortable with Kurloz because he knows that there is a part of Kurloz that sees himself as a monster, the same way Derek sees himself - and because he thinks they're both right. When it comes down to it, both of them are monsters. Derek believes that both of them are willing to go to whatever lengths they need to in order to protect themselves and what they consider most important to them. Right now, those things align and maybe even include each other - all right, Derek's definitely include Kurloz - but he's under no illusions of what might happen if those ever change.

Derek feels safe with Kurloz because he believes that if and when one of them has to betray the other, they'll be able to understand why. They understand each other and accept each other for the terrible people they are, even if they can also both see more of the good parts in each other than a lot of other people might get to see.

Honestly, they're not good for each other, not as they are. Like you said, they'll never challenge each other, they'll never push each other to change, not as things currently stand. Maybe if one of them gets an external push to change, they could help the other - but who knows? I'm excited to see where things go with them.